my dad({})

     i don't know its been so long since the last time i saw your face, dad. i've been broken, had ups and downs, teared down ever since, sadness and dissapointment over you. i always believed you'll be back here with us although untill now you never did.
    
     a post from my friend's blog make me remind of you again, i've forgotten you in the shadows of a new father figure for me. my mom found love and care firgure for us again, that can love me like a father should that can be a moral model for my little brothers. at first i see that as a dissaster but then i found my self love that figure:)

     i made a right decision, i guess, for letting my mom be happy by her choice of a man and letting my dad's chances to come back go. although how much i cried, how much i try to hold up my tears writing this, and all the feelings i sacrifice i hope two of the most loved mom and dad would be happy with there own choices
   
     feeling like a fool for trying to contact you, for wishing you your birthdays every year i didnt see you. i hate you but i love you. be good and wish you health always protects and allah with you



                                                                                                                  sincerely,
                                                                                                                  your first daughter.

me, my mom and my dad that got away. at NY, USA.

here's my new dad, my mom and me:)

my mom and dad. at central park, NY

my dad, stupidly wears a micky mouse hat. at disneyland, USA